Human Design 'NotSelf'

Human Design separates the Bodygraph behind the Coloured in Centers, that which is consistent in us, with the White Centers, the Open receptive areas that get conditioned by us being in auric contact (around 15 feet) with those that have those Centers defined in them.

Because of Conditioning, The Not Self dense consciousness gets lost in trying to hold onto Conditioning and believes there is something missing. After all, around some people sides of us we rarely get to experience come alive as we think they should always be there.

As we take in conditioning, because it is not consistent in us, we amplify it and distort it, based on previous experiences, and there is the tendency to 'overplay' the qualities of the themes we are receiving.

For example, when someone who has an Open or Undefined Solar Plexus comes in contact with someone who has that Center of emotional energy and awareness consistent in them, they tend to get drawn into the emotionality of whatever the emotional energy may be. This can be a very pleasurable experience or it can be an unpleasant experience depending whether or not we act on that influence. So someone who normally enjoys being quiet and introverted can suddenly find themselves shouting and getting upset about something that is to do with the emotions of the person whose energy they are amplifying.

It can all get very confusing if one does not know one's Design. The unemotionally defined person can spend so much time re-experiencing the emotional outburst and its consequences, wondering what happened.

The White areas also include the White Gates in one's chart. The mind will also overplay in those areas too, especially with Split or Quadruple Split Definition charts.

As an example, if a Split Definition chart had only one Gate that will join their two definitions, let's say it's the 31st Gate of Influence. The NotSelf conditioned person is likely to be trying to be the spokesperson of influence and gets lost in trying to tell everyone which direction they should be going. Such Not Self behaviour, because it is 'overplayed' often results in no one wanting to listen to their false guidance, not recognising the person as a someone who is worth listening to.

Through entering into the experiment of following one's Strategy and Inner Authority ones Not Self confusion begins to drop away. The dissonant energy of the Not Self trying to assert itself begins to become signposts of when we are being conditioned.

It takes time, but each year one is in their experiment more and more of this fall Not Self drops away. If one is coming to this knowledge as an adult it is unlikely that the Not Self can be completely dropped. But certainly the choices made from our true authority reduce the resistance of living. Life does get easier and fits so much better with us in many ways.